I would like to work in addiction treatment, in part, because I am a person with a history of addiction and feel that this would be a way of giving back. I know that I cannot undo any of the harm that I caused those negatively impacted by my actions while I was temporarily relieved of the ability to choose my choice. I recognize that I am responsible for that harm. I also recognize how difficult it can be to liberate one-self from patterns of behavior related to the adoption of maladaptive coping mechanisms. And that this can be especially difficult when the reliance upon these maladaptive coping mechanisms artificially decreases the choices available to us until the only choice we have left is to drink, use or engage in our (for the lack of a better term) behavior of abuse.
My personal experience with recovery has allowed me to understand that there was a way out of this pattern of destructive behavior for me. I believe that there are as many paths to recovery as there are individuals to go down those paths, and it is my hope that I can help to facilitate or guide individuals struggling with addiction toward the path to their recovery.
There is an A.H. Almaas quote that I think of often. It goes like this: "Only when compassion is present, will people allow themselves to see the truth."
I cannot speak for anyone other than myself. So I will say that at the heart of my addictive behavior was an un-truth. It was that I was not deserving of empathy, sympathy, patience, compassion, respect, or dignity. It was only through experience the compassion of others that I was able to see the truth of my situation as others could. It would take a lot of work but when was able to discover that everyone is deserving of my empathy, sympathy, compassion, and respect, and that we are all people deserving of dignity, where I once had resentment I only had compassion. And when I realized that I was one of the people who was deserving of those things, I no longer had a desire to drink or do drugs. I do not expect this to be the experience that everyone has, but do I intend to live my life having compassion for those who are ill-equipped to have compassion for themselves. I know I will not achieve this perfectly, but I will do the best I can in the moment, with the tools available to me at the time, given the circumstances.
Began by sweeping the floor and performing menial tasks such as counting/deburring parts.
Learned to inspect parts, and perform the responsibilities of lathe/mill operator, including changing tools, performing tool offsets, modifying tool offsets to account for wear/human error.
Taught myself to read and write programming language from observing the numerical controller of the machines and referencing the machining drawings.
Taught myself to build 3D models of the parts we were responsible for making.
Taught myself to write programming when my father could not keep up with our customers' demands.
Reduced cycle times/increased machining efficiency of high volume production parts, leading to an increase in both throughput and profit.
Worked closely with customers to ensure the parts they tasked us with producing would function as desired.
Became the sole programmer, and troubleshooting engineer for my family business.
Spent time running the operations of a marijuana grow house.
Was responsible for maintaining mother plants, cutting/rooting clones, growing plants through vegetative and bloom cycles, cutting/defoliating/drying the harvest.
Briefly ran a small business maintaining aquariums for former customers of The Big Fish when the store went out of business.
Oversaw daily operations of store.
Was responsible for maintaining water quality of salt-water fish system, as well as the health and wellbeing of salt-water livestock.
Entrusted with the responsibility of performing regular maintenance of the aquariums of a number of the store's customers.
Managed store inventory, including purchasing and receiving.
Assisted with training and overseeing new employees.
I am very mechanically inclined and can fix pretty much anything with moving parts
I have an unquenchable thirst for knowledge, and am a quick learner
I have a strong desire to allow the years that I thought I had lost to my addiction to be a lesson rather than a mistake
I believe I have a unique combination of skills, life experience, and perspective which will serve me well in the field of addiction treatment
I have a number of hobbies including but not limited to: sewing, knitting, crochet, painting, cooking, playing the guitar, jewelry making, strength training, and reading recovery literature
I currently attend Alcoholics Anonymous meetings, and for a time, I was the secretary of a secular, in-person recovery meeting at my local AA clubhouse