I have been an addict for 30 years along with suffering multiple traumas and abuse in my lifetime. I am currently in recovery and working weekly with a therapist and I have found that the more I am willing to learn about myself the more I find things I love and respect about who I am. I am not ashamed of the things I have done nor am I ashamed of the person I once was while using drugs and alcohol. I see myself as a student of a very complex life and someone who has and will have a lot to offer another person who is still walking in the footsteps of active addiction and possibly suffering from a diagnosis of a mental disorder which I was at one time diagnosed with several mental disorders only to find that I no longer require medications and my symptoms have disappeared the longer I am clean. Sometimes we exhibit symptoms of mental disease when actually we just mimic the disorders from our drug and alcohol abuse. I no longer feel like a prisoner in my own skin and I no longer am looking for someone to blame for my issues. Accountability and Acceptance has set me free from the misery I once knew as my life. I am eager to learn and pass on the things I have learned during my recovery. I am a patient and hardworking person and a good listener. I am excited to know that someone somewhere will benefit from my experiences and my stories.
I have been in recovery 2 1/2 years, I still attend self help groups and therapy every week. I am also a student in a Medical Assistant program scoring very high grades in my classes. I need a chance to prove that I can help others, I want to give back everything that was given to me when I had given up on ever being happy, there were several people who didn't give up and kept pushing me to love myself.